I’m taking too much medication.
Do you ever walk into a room with the intent to do/get something and then forget why you’re there?
I do this all the time. But it’s worse with the addition of the third Wellbutrin. This evening Aaron and I were talking and I forgot what he said right after he said it. I also went into the kitchen to get a washcloth to wipe L down and had to stand there for 30 seconds trying to figure out why I was there.
I’m going to skip tomorrow and see if it makes any difference. Maybe I should just take it when I think I really need it.
Ok, so that’s every day, but some days are worse than others.
Today was one of the lower days I’ve had in a while. L made me crazy.
We went to visit Ryn and Laney this morning and Liam was an absolute pill. He was trying to grab clocks off of end tables, he had one leg on top of the coffee table before I could stop him, and he thought that the drapes for the back door were a great place to hide.
I could have shot him.
He spent the majority of the trip in the kitchen on a rug. He was seriously testing my limits. At one point I was nursing E and I could hear him crawling around so asked him if he was still on the rug. He responded, “Yes. Is he standin’ on da wug by da doowah?”
Shit.
I couldn’t say anything…he was on a rug after all, just not the one he was supposed to be on. He obviously got the “literal gene” from his father.
But, Laney is cute and Ryn was dressed with makeup on - which is better than I was - so I think she’s doing well.
By the time we left Ryn’s, there was probably 1/4 inch of snow on the ground. But, the roads were fine once I was out of the neighborhood.
My original plan was to go to Sally Beauty Supply and pick up a few items so that I will be able to cut my hair and Ang will be able to color it. However, L was in his jammies and I knew I couldn’t carry him and Elena in at the same time. I contemplated calling SBS to see if they’d pull my stuff and come get my credit card from my car so I wouldn’t have to go in, but since it was snowing, I decided just to head home.
As I was driving, I noticed that the “Amber Alert” signs had a post. Fortunately it was just about lane closings due to a traffic accident. Later I found out that it was a 35-car accident.
Ho-ly crap!
L napped, E was up, and I have been trying to catch up on housework. I can’t let one day go by where I just relax or it just piles up and causes stress.
Plus, there are things a-brewin’ at the HC household. Things up in the air. Things which require a lot of work. Things which require decisions. And I’m really sorry that I can’t divulge any information at this point because not being able to write about it is making me crazy, but you’ll all find out eventually.
Yeah, so that was about it. I did a bit of laundry, watched E try to figure out the back-to-tummy rollover, and tried to get L to eat something.
He was a weird-o about food all day. I finally got smart and looked in his mouth. I am so glad that the insanity is not going to be the norm; he’s getting his two top molars.
I drugged him. Hopefully he’ll sleep well tonight.
